I'm feeling the pressure. The audience ( aka- you) has not been offered anything for which to applause. And I have to say, I don't need the applause but I want an attentive audience. It'd be a shame for the masses to file into the auditorium (aka- my blog) for the grand opening only to find that the stage is bare. This resulting in an uncaptivated audience filing out of the auditorium never to return.

Enough with the metaphores.

I've struggled to write any entries in my blog, always coming on to write one, but always leaving with a blank screen. I 'm not sure if the problem lies with shallow thoughts, or a hesitance to share them. The latter must be true because my mind hasn't stopped spinning for months, spinning so quickly infact that words are difficult to catch. So I think the only way to do this is to start ranting. Ranting about anything that comes. If I can be quite honest, and I can because this is my blog, I believe that there is great injustice in the world. I've been reading alot about corrupt governments and corporations. So here is the honesty: why, in the name of God (and I say this with reverence) do I sit with idle hands. I am now guilty of knowing and doing nothing, nothing but praying. And I do believe that prayer is neccesary. I do not, however, believe that God intends me to pray and never get up from my prayer to be at His beckon in order that the prayers may be answered through me. So you can see that the thoughts spinning 'round and 'round have not been gentle ones. They're beating around my brain like a bunch of rocks. Heavy rocks. Did you know that rich nations give around 50 billion in foreign-aid to under developed countries each year? Sounds good doesn't it?, infact it makes us sound like saints, 'the affluent do-gooders!'. But don't stick out your chest just yet. Hear the rest of the story. These same wealthy 'do-gooder' nations are using their power to manipulate atleast 100 billion (notice that this is twice the amount given in foreign-aid!) from under developed countries through International Trade Tariffs. Struggling countries are prone to dependancy on International Trade; this dependancy makes them vulnerable to be taken advantage of by the elite. And shame on us for abusing the opportunity to squeeze as much as we can from their suffering economies. So for any of you out there who care to pray, pray this: that I will be at God's beckon call to answer the prayers not only from my own mouth but from the mouths of the oppressed. I realize that I cannot answer prayers, but I understand that with prayers of intercession, God expects a sprint ready position. I hesitate to pray sometimes for fear of the personal consequences. For example, if I pray for the salvation of a friend, the moment I am up from my knees I meed to be vulnerable to the Holy Spirit leading me to the fulfillment of my prayer. So when I pray that the corrupt governments relieve their oppression of the poor, can I really stand up from that prayer and follow the Spirit to fulfill that prayer? It all seems too much, too overwhelming to pray. Pray for me.